Life with Twins...

One of the other most common questions i get asked when out with the boys is... "how do you find it? how is life with twins?" I usually just answer - busy- Sometimes good, sometimes bad.

Here's the real answer...

Life with twins is good and bad. It's extremely busy and most days I have not a minute to myself. Barely time to go to the bathroom, let alone do some reading which I absolutely adore. It takes me an awfully long time to read anything. (Right now I'm reading "A Tree grows in Brooklyn" - I've had to renew the book several times already.) Anyway, Life with twins is busy.

And Life with Twins is also boring. We do the same thing everyday, all the time. Sometimes the boys sleep a little lonter, sometimes a little less. Sometimes they are little crankier, sometimes a little happier. That is the only real difference between the days - sometimes the boys' mood changes slightly.

Somedays we go out in the afternoon, very rarely we go out in the morning. It's too hard to get them ready to out in the morning and their mood is more unpredictable in the morning. It's hard to predict if they are going to want to eat. They don't eat as consistently in the morning as they do in the afternoon. In the afternoon they eat every 3-4 hrs, and a full bottle. In the morning, they take sips here and there so that between 7AM and noon, they eat one complete bottle. So I never know when we go out in the morning, if they are going to want to eat. And it's really hard to feed two babies when I'm out and about.

On being a mother - It's something I've been dreaming about and working towards, it seems like my whole entire life. Now that it's here, it's not even close to what I imagined it to be. Some days I hate it, and some days I adore it. It sort of depends on the boys' mood! I adore the boys and live for the little smiles and snuggles that I get. But it is so much work, so much more than I imagined. I've struggled with post partum depression, which seems to be finally getting better now that I've been on medication for about 6 weeks. Not to mention now that there seems to be less stress going on in my life! (Ken's out of the hospital, Christmas is past, and I'm in a better routine with the boys... now if only we had more money! Then all the stress would be gone.) Really, the PPD is what has made this difficult. Thank goodness for the friends and family members who have helped out over the past 4 months. I tell you, you really learn who are your true friends, those that you can count on in difficult times, when you have twins! There have been those that have helped out at a drop of the hat. And for them, I am extremely grateful. They've saved my life (not to mention - the boys' lives!!!) more than once.

So - in some ways, life with twins is not all it's cracked up to be. On the other hand, in other ways, life with twins is way more than I could ever have imagined. The whole "bonding" thing took a little while to happen, but now I know it's definitely there. It happened with Ty when he had his surgery, and Hunter when he had his cold. Now they are my life, my whole being, my soul.

That is why, when people ask me, I usually just answer "Busy." Because there is too much to say otherwise.